feeling

and someone once told me
that by choosing my religion,
i am choosing social suicide
and by choosing the world,
i am choosing acceptance
they were persuasive
attempting to draw me in
i was swayed by their words
but immediately snapped out of it
i decided if giving up truth
is what it takes for me to have a life
of acceptance and pleasure
then what kind of life is that?
knowing that i have traded
the only thing that every makes me feel
for something that totally numbs me