trials

I think when it comes to trials that we go through we ultimately have two choices. You can either choose to humble yourself and rely on God, or you can choose to get mad and push him away.

Up until last year, I'd always push him away, and as a result I would find myself so far from God I barely knew who He was anymore. I believe we go through every situation in order to grow and I believe God gives us tests in order to see how much he can trust us with, how mature we are, how much we can handle, etc. But he doesn't do it in a bad way at all, He tests us to help mold us into who we are meant to be, and to help us build our faith.

It's only in the past year that I've really committed myself fully to God. Where I chose that through thick and thin I will never leave Him, that I will always turn to Him and never against Him. As a result of that, there is an intimacy I've never felt before. There is a trust between us, a bond. It's a beautiful relationship. And as a result of my faithfulness He gives me more, blesses me more, and I am able to receive His love in larger quantities and quality.

Pushing God away is the worst thing you can do, because what are you without Him? He is everything, which makes you nothing without Him. No matter what you're going through, whatever difficult decision lies before you, whatever sin you're living in that you hate yourself for... none of that is a good enough reason to push him away. It's actually all the more reason to draw closer to Him. He wants you. He wants every bit of you, He wants to be the one you count on and the first one you tell when something good or bad happens to you. He wants a relationship with you. He never judges you, never hurts you, always forgives you, always loves you, always comforts you, always looks after you, and He holds your future in the palm of His hands.

"Look at the birds. They don't plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren't you far more valuable to him than they are?" - Matthew 6:26

So, why do we turn from Him? It is human nature I guess, we inevitably let emotions take control of us. You must train yourselves to choose God every time. It's going to be hard, you're going to want to give up sometimes and it's going to take a lot of faith to continue seeking God through your hardships.

But once you do make the choise to lean on Him, your life will be changed. Forever. So turn to Him. Choose Him under any circumstance. He is waiting to love on you. You just have to let him.

"No power in the sky above or in the earth below--indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord." - Romans 8:39