relationships

God has really been setting me straight these past few months. I've realized so many things He has been trying to teach me. He has clearly had a theme for all the lessons He has taught me lately. That theme was relationships.

Lately, I have been stripped of some relationships. It happened that a few people were removed from my life. I am not talking about one relationship. I'm talking about being hit in every direction. From within my family, to friends, to love interests, and to my self.

Basically, every person I have ever put on a pedestal, God has straight out knocked them off. Not because they weren't right for me, or what they represented was wrong, because that's not the case. I have realized that I trusted in all those different people for guidance. I went to them for advice, I put my faith in them and the only problem with that was that they were not God. We all know God is a jealous God and I was trusting in those people to give me direction, instead of seeking God's help. I neglected to put my faith in Him. Instead, I put it in people.

As hard as this new year has been, I realize the point. God knew the only way to make me realize I need Him and no other, was to allow these certain situations to happen so that He would be able to reveal the truth of what I have been doing to Him, which was neglecting him. It cost me hardships with people I love. Yes, mistakes have been made in the process, I have hurt people, and I was hurt. But we got through it, and everything turned out civil and well. And I now understand that it was all for a greater purpose. After a storm, there's always a rainbow.

My rainbow was the realization of how much my God longs for my full attention, my complete trust in Him and only Him. He wants to be my everything. My comforter, my friend, my provider, my mentor. That complete love and comfort I've been looking for in so many different people, the only reason I never found it was because only God could give it to me.